Hunny do tell us all about your vacation.

I missed you.
Gosh, I am rather shy to tell you that I sure could have used a hug from you during this past week.

Gonna show us lots of pictures

xo
K

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

This message has been edited. Last edited by: *hypatia,

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

hi Hypatia...I'm back... Been back a few days but was soooo down I was afraid to post and bring anybody else down with me. My feelings were like just on Dday......... I kept wondering what in the h#ll was wrong with me. Guess what? I still have not figured that out. I'm trying to work some issues out. Many I will post them and you can help.......There has to be SOMEBODY to give me advice. It would be a long post so maybe tomorrow I will do that.

I missed you while I was away. I give you many many hugs now. If you don't need them right this moment...well...store them up in case I go away again. I'm glad tohear you are starting on meds. Let me know IF they do the trick. Thinking about some for me too.

Tell me what is new and what I missed.

Post more tomorrow. Maxlo

I think I would like to change my post name. I would if I knew how. Maxlo was the name of my dog (now dead). I picked that name so I would not forget what my ID would be on these boards.

Take Care. Thought of you while on vacation.

{{{{{{{{{{Max}}}}}}}}}}

hugs and love and prayers to YOU!!!!
we ARE here w/ you and for you, darling.

xo
K

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

Hypatia where are you? Did you find a place tos tay in case you needed it? I wish I lived closer so I could help you more.

You know,....Your son has the same birthday as my son..Jan.24th/ My son was born in 1980.

Your son will be great like mine is, he has no choice with a great birthdate. Maxlo

Hugs to you darling
{{{{{{{{the lady who wants a new name}}}}}}}}}


BabyLuv is destined for greatness, there is no doubt in my mind.

Gosh, Max, if your baby boy is 24, then you can not be much older than me.
Don't you dare ever call yourself an old lady again 'cause if you are old, then what does that make me?

What part of the Appalacians did you do? Did you do any climbing or hiking?

I LUUUUUUUUV thim thar hills!!!!
Spent many a fond childhood days/weeks in the Appalacians, but the mountains in New England. I still haven't seen the ones down here. A life long goal.

Do tell about you V-K!!!
pretty please!!!!!


me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

Psssst hunny, could we call you Venus d'Milieu?
How about Hera?
Then there is Aphrodite?

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

Hi Hypatia.... i like your suggestions of a new name, been thinking about that. I am partial to the name of Cleopatra, the queen who had men falling all over her and could seduce any man.

My trip to the Mountains was great. H and I did a lot of hiking. We were in the Smokey Mtns. area in Tennessee mostly. The waterfalls and streams, rivers were so beautiful. Will go back there hopefully next year about the same time.

We hope to go to New Mexico, Albuquerque to visit with my son who is an Officer Officer in the Air Force there. He graduated college with a BS in chemical engineering and liked the idea of being an Officer so he joined and loves it so far. He rents a house with another Officer so far because this Officer hopes to get married by January leaving my son to look for another roommate.

We want to go around the middle of May and stay for a month and be back home towards the end of June. Right now looking into renting a condo down there. Think we have found one.

No, I am an old lady. I am 57 years old, birthday was Jan.10th. I had my son when I just turned 32 years old. H is 59. People have said and taken me for being about 45 though. Sometimes I feel like 100 years old when I am hurting from H's crap.

How are things going for you now. I need an update. I really don't remember your whole story. Is it posted somewhere on this site?

Well, hugs to you too because you never know when you just might need them. Sometimes things come up all of a sudden without any warning. Take Care...Maxlo...CLEOPATRA....

Cleo, I like that

As long as you are not the Queen of d'nile.

and 50 what ever IS NOT OLD!!!!!!!!

oooo your baby is an officer?
oooooooooo
a proud mommy, I am sure.
ooooooo

you go Momma!!!!!

Hey my 17 yr old baby boy just got accepted to Rochester Inst of Tech WITH a partial scholarship!!!!! He wants to study Quantum Physics.

Babygirl is 19 and is studying the classics at Mount Holyoke .

I know how to raise them eggheads

heh heh heh

My torrid thread is titled HELP it is starting again, or something like that.

I have a post in the intro in CSA/ASA as well.

Feel free to read.

I am so glad you had a great trip.
Albequirky, Huh? that sounds great as well.

So you had one at late 30 something as well?
hmmmm.......
You go Momma


So there IS hope for BabyLuv yet?

HOLY DUKE raisin' a kid at this age
he is a luv though.
Cute as a button and a true miracle baby.
(shhhh... i wasn't suppozd to be able to concieve, carry full term AND using contraceptives. prePMS and multi-multi-miscarriages )

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

me again... you read the story of my H's abuse and acting out up till the time he met me. I wish I could say that is all and no infidelities on H's part after M. It isn't so.

After 1 year of M in 1969, H gets oral sex from a prostitute while working. H is a policeman working the late shift. He says he didn't care for that and it was his older partner's idea. H was about 24 and partner in his 50's. Never did that again. In 1969 also calls a girl he saw with me only 2 times. He calls her up and asks to go over, she says no. He thought he had a chance because this girl was married to an older man and having trouble with her h.

In 1971 calls a mutual friend of ours and goes over her house when her H was working. He has coffee for an hour and then as he leaves kisses her at the door and asks to get together sometime. She said not now. He never sees her again because they move.

From 1972 into 1976 he seeks out guys at public bathrooms, parks, and went by 3 different guys houses. From 1971 H is now a detective, plainclothes in an unmarked police car and free to travel all over the city and be unaccountable for his time. Worked 5 to midnight. In Spring of 76 H goes thru the park and sees a girl reading at night in car. He stops and talks and since she kept mentioning all these police she knew, H figured this girl will have sex. So, H asks her to go for a ride but they stay in the park and he gets a hand job from her. This happenened on 3 separate occasions. The last time H and her wanted intercourse in car but at the last moment H couldn't go thru with it. Girl is upset and says if he won't do anything next time she will not go with him. H doesn't see her again.

A few months later he gets introduced to another girl outside of police station by a friend known to fool around on his wife. H feels since this girl was with this guy she would do something too. He takes her for a ride and parks behind some factory and gets oral sex from him. A few weeks later she calls station looking for this other guy but he is not there and H offers himself to meet her. He takes he for a ride again but this time she mentions how about a room? H says ok but was uncomfortable with the idea. They go and foreplay was working out good but then when she mounts him his erection goes away. She tried everything to correct that but it didn't work. She is so angry and says not a word back to her car. H never sees her again.

Then Oct of 76 H goes back to the guys....Then he gets nd STD from getting oral sex from one. This he said woke him up. He finally realized he was out of control. He realized he could have gotten beaten up by some guy, blackmailed, lose his good job, and lose me. He got treated for STD, thank God he did not have sex with me during this time and I didn't know a thing. H straightenend out about this time and no other sex with anyone except he did have a case in 1974 involving a loungerie salesperson at a bar and he went took report and walked her to car and kissed her. No response from her and that was all.

In 1979 he says he was attracted to this waitress at Dunkin Donuts, she was about 15 years older than him. He never even had a conversation with her, but she was on his thought. Then I became pregnant. H was a changed man he said. Now he was to be the father he never had. No other sex outside of me.

I had H take a polygraph, two of them. First one he failed because there were so many lies. After a few months and he swore all truth I have, he took another polygraph by a more competanant examiner and passed.

All what I have wrote I never knew till it started coming out on 12-18-02. Did not get full truth til about May 03.

This is been so hard on me because I question our whole 36 years of M even though this was only going on for the first 8 years or so.

Talked to a Christian counselor and said H had a sexual addiction and was lucky he was able to stop on his own which is unusual. It took a STD to stop and make him realize.

I became suspicious when before Dday H had a heart attack and I had to go get his past medical reords and it showed a possible STD in Nov 1976. I started asking many questions.

Cleo,
I remember you story well from MB.
Gosh, your H is a strong and brave man.
Youa re one lucky woman to have him for a husband. But i do not have to tell you that, do I? You have always contended that. I have often gathered strength from your posts. And I thankyou.

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

Continued.... H finally confessed to 1 time oral sex and from a girl and that is how he says he got STD. You can see how much more did come out over time.

H says he never tried to pick any girl up only if he thought they would do something. 2nd girl in 1971 came on to him...so he thought but was wrong.. he went by her previous reputation.

H never had a time out with the boys drinking, fishing, pool etc. When H wasn't working he was with me ALL the time. So, how was I to know anything. All stuff was done only while working. Also in 1980 H changed jobs in the police dept. and worked inside no further chance of unaccountable time. H now retired.

H will do anything for me just like he always has but more so because of me knowing all this. He is so afraid of me leaving him. I don't want to. But I told him if he lies more, or I find out any lies, past or present...that is my breaking point and I leave. I know I am able to make it on my own, financially and emotionally....I just don't want to. I love H and I know he loves me.

What H believes probably because of the sex in childhood ..that sex and love are completely separate. When he hears how guys fall for another girl other than their wife he says they are lying and want only sex. He has always been a loner and I am the only one he has loved, that I know for sure. He thinks all the guys..WS.. only wanted sex. He doesn't believe that they love or even think they love another. To him Sex and Love are separate and will never be connected. I am ok with this because I know he loves me and will never another. But the sex he had????? I gave more than a hand job. He says it was the thrill of sex with another, the guys it was more dangerous and the higher he felt.

If you made it reading this far....you are an angel. Thanks....Cleo..Max

made it m'dear

No no You are the angel

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

Please tell me some of your story if you feel comfortable or when you get time. I don't remember it.

Some day I am going to do more traveling in the South. I love the South but H loves the desert. Someday when I am old and gray...dye my hair now... I might get to see you.

You are a person I really can talk with. If there is anything you could use my help with...let me know.

I have to go thru my books and I think there are some relationship books I no longer need. One is "His Needs, Her Needs" and "Passionate Marriage" and another I forget the name. Let me know what to do with these books. People can keep them. I don't want them back. I hope they help others. Passionate Marriage is a difficult read though. Thanks Cleo

Also, what H and I are doing now...my suggestion definitely not his... We have started with his childhood and now am up to the day of our Marriage. I want to go thru all this stuff one last time and put it away. H gives a lot of I don't remembers because he doesn't take the time to think back. I told him I need that and honesty. Life is so strange with so many different stories. My heart goes out to ALL that have relationship problems and have been hurt by infidelity. I pray nitely for all those in that way.

Time to do some work... a little at least. Be back on tonight. Take Care ..Cleo

You are a true angel, Cleo

Yah, I felt a connectedness back in MB w/ you.

I am going to request that my thread be deleted very soon. Prob tomorrow.
I will give you the link before i do.

I will also link you to CSA/ASA intro in CSA/ASA.

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

as the stomach turns

me-42 yr o
H (WS)-46 yr o
met-feb 2001
M 06-23-01
BabyLuv born 01-24-02

absolute affairs (EA and/or PA) to date-3
two of these are reoccurring for the past three years, one of which is w/ X-W

susupected other affiars- 2

I may have been one of the OW, the one that got pregnant.

thanks.. I will be on late tonight. Thanks for your kind words. Heck if I can make it so can just about everyone. I mean it. Emotionally I am not a strong person but maybe I am. I just was never tested before this. Cleo

CLEO!!!!!!! how the heck are you today?

Would you like me to walk you thru the changing of your screen name? It is very easy.