I don't know what it is... I can't point to it exactly. It's just little things. I looked at dh's cell phone today and there was a phone call to NM where we moved from a little over a year ago.

I asked him tonight who he called in NM. His reponse, What does it matter it's my phone. I don't get it.

I said, I'm sorry I was just curious. He told me who he was trying to get ahold of.

I told him I'm scared, I feel like he is hiding something again. His response was why are you going through my phone I don't go through yours.

I was on the phone with him afterwards and I got the whole here we go again...

Yeah Star he has.. We had what I thought was complete openess. We share a main e-mail account, and both have sub accounts for certain things that we both have complete access too. I handle all finances, therefore get all bills.

Every once in awhile he gets upset about me checking his stuff, but he says he also knows he set himself up for it.

I guess with the academy coming up, him working nights, just acting differently and then this, something feels totally wrong.

Thanks Star. That's a good point. Maybe he does feel that the "looking" should stop by now. But there are just little things going on.

Last night he was talking about a female co worker and how she shared with him all about her personal life, ie she raises her brothers by herself, her parents were killed, how hard it is taking care of them etc. She is fairly young, I told him I felt he needed to be careful, that she may start to get the wrong idea if he continues sharing personal things. Maybe I'm over reacting, but I know my dh wants to help everyone, and it sometimes puts him in a bad situation.

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The deal I have with my husband is that I tell/ask to do the looking now.....as opposed to just sort of sneaking peeks. That helps him feel a little less vulnerable. "H, I'd like to look online at your credit card bill okay

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I have tried this, I usually get a smart remark such as you are going to do it anyways why bother asking? Or you probably already did.

Maybe we can sit down and come to an agreement on it. I don't know why I am so worried, we even switch cell phones sometimes. Not for honesty reasons, just because one phone may be dead or we can't find it etc..

Thanks again Star I will definately try and talk to him about how we can handle it better.

I think he did just listen. He isn't much to share his personal life with someone. At least not at work. I did ask if he shared anything with her and how often they talk. He said she came in one night and he said she looked tired and that's when she went on about her personal life. Maybe she just needed to vent right at the time.

Like I said before, I think I am a bit sensitive lately... You are right, he did tell me... I should thank him for that.