I spoke to my attorney yesterday.

We meet with a mediator on July 7th.

She and I in a room and WS and his attorney in a different room. The mediator will attempt to work with the both of us to come to an agreement.

If one is reached, we will sign off on it and that will be it. No court date, nothing. Just the end. The end of a 10 year marriage, 14 years together.

And DD8 is still saying, I miss my Daddy, why won't he come home.

It made me so sad. Especially since neither one of us had any choice but to live with and accept his choices in life. And that choice was to walk away from his family.

So now we just have to deal with it. And try and heal.

Healing. Sometimes it seems like such a daunting, overwhelming task. And I wonder, will it ever happen.

I read a quote last weekend (on a wall hanging - wish I could have bought it but it was hideously overpriced) that really resonated with me. Something along the lines of

"In the end what matters most is
How well did you live
How well did you love, and
How well did you learn to let go"

Dammit, but that letting go bit is the killer

Sandy, I understand. I did that with my ex. We got nowhere.

Both parties were in separate rooms and I made certain that I did not have to see him. They honored my request.

I wish you the best. Please realize that Gracie's wishes are not going to occur. Look out for your protection and what is best as a business settlement for your marriage - I am sorry that it sounds so cold, but that is what you have to protect now.

Deal with the emotional stuff - you and Gracie - later. Take care of what you need to focus on now.

Major HUGSSSS!

(Hugs to you & your's born by swift angel's)

I'm sorry for this. I feel better accepting that I don't have to understand all that is in the world. Yes, we do need to accept things, and there are reminders that pull at us, but like plants in the Spring, we can find our way into the light.

All the best to you and the little one.
SB